While browsing, I read a post from The Daily Post, and I was motivated and inspired to join the weekly challenge. It is my first time to enter 🙂 Let me give it a try.
Meaning
Raison d’être is a French term, meaning “the reason or justification for existence.”
Why do I write? Why do I blog? Why am I here? What on earth am I here for? WOW! These questions were walking and playing around my head for a while now.
As a beginner, I do not know why I am doing this. At first, I just want to give it a try, but it suddenly became a cry of my heart to write more. There’s like an urge in my heart to write online; Maybe somebody has in need to hear some words of encouragement. I would be glad to be of help.
Am I the only one who has a low self-esteem? The only one on earth who cry excessively for many reasons and none? Who is not confident about herself and started to feel unworthy and a nobody? Am I the only person who lives on this earth having this depression and anxiety? Am I the only one who doesn’t have self-confidence? I bet there are many.
Little bit of my background
I was a maid for four years, and it was tough to believe in myself that I can do better than cleaning. I graduated with a bachelor degree, but there are reasons why I chose this path. Do I look down on the job? Definitely not. Did I look down on my self? Yes. I had no choice. Enduring it for the sake of “working permit,” so I can stay in the country/island, Aruba.
I am an overseas worker. The reason why I left the Philippines is same as for any other Overseas Filipino Workers (OFW). It is to help my family financially. Helping them is not bad; in fact, it was awesome. There is just this pain in my heart that I wanted to do more excellent, but I could not. A deep longing whenever I am alone in my room for God’s joy and peace every day
How writing helped me
I write because I felt helpless, and I wanted my voice to be heard. I tried to encourage others who are experiencing the same thing and let them know that there is a way out.
Low-self esteem, depression, and anxiety, feeling unworthy and useless, they must end before these can destroy your heart and whole being. I was at the end of the rope, but I am grateful because God is faithful.
Whenever I write, I feel different. I am somebody. I feel smarter and confident. My voice has been heard, the cry of my heart has been perceived.
When I am weak, I find strength in writing. It is my escape. Writing is something I would never stop doing, online or offline, publish, or unpublished because this is one of the ways where I see myself as somebody.
The princess who is stronger amid any trials. The one who can smile in front of others as if there are no heartaches. I know there’s a lot of people who are very good at covering their pain through laughing and smiling; I am one of them. It is not bad at all. But when I write, I cannot hide it. What I write most of the time reflects on what I feel.
When I am weak, I find strength in writing. It is my escape. Writing is something I would never stop doing, online or offline, publish, or unpublished because this is one of the ways where I see myself as somebody.
Raison d’etre
I won’t give credit to writing alone, but to the God who speaks to me to do so. I write not only because of oneself’s expression but to inspire others and use this to reveal what God has done to me. During my years as a maid, I have learned a lot; I had rough days a lot! 🙂 But those years are just a part of the journey, God shaped me to a person I became now, he comforted me, he rescued me, he healed me, and now I have a story to share.
My name is Princess, and my raison d’etre is to write to express, inspire and give God the glory.
What’s yours? 🙂
Written: May 5, 2016
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Hi, I’m Princess Leah.
I’m a working mom of two, doing life with my husband and family while trying to move through it all with faith, honesty, and intention. I write about real-life moments, quiet struggles, and the kind of encouragement we often need but don’t always say out loud. This space is for anyone learning to keep going, even when life feels heavy.